Pregnancy is weird. I'm pretty sure everyone who said it was wonderful and beautiful and magical doesn't remember it all. The first 3 months are constant nausea and fatigue, then in the 2nd trimester, you feel better, but you get fat, then the third trimester is a whole basket of discomfort featuring treats such as heartburn, swollen feet and ankles, crazy dreams, fatigue, contractions, painful kicks in the vagina, and oh so much more! I'm looking forward to the baby, but I'm kind of perplexed as to why people would enjoy this. I guess it's the whole miracle of life thing. Feeling her kick is pretty cool, even if I wish she would go to sleep half of the time. :)
I still haven't taken my glucose screening test, which I have to do before my next midwife visit on October 2nd. I'm pretty sure I don't have gestational diabetes, cuz I would be passing out by now if I did. I think... I'm just not looking forward to fasting and drinking blue sugar water and having my blood drawn. Sounds like a recipe for disaster! I already want to eat an entire banquet 9 times a day, so I have no idea how I'm going to handle fasting for 12 hours. In normal life, that wouldn't be so difficult, but in 3rd trimester world, it seems impossible!
I wake up early no matter what because I need to eat something, and also because Miles, my cat, meows incessantly until you get up and feed him. I'll kill him. I will. That's not true, I love him and he's super cute. But he smells terrible since he poops like 6 times a day and I can't scoop it due to being pregnant, (score!) so if Danny's already at work or something, I have to stay away from that darn box, which is hard to do in a small apartment. Gross. I don't know how I'm going to manage it when I'm home all the time with the baby. Gross!
Lately, I've been reading The Baby Book, by Dr. Sears. I really like it, but it's left me with so many questions to ask my midwife. I had to compile a list so that I don't forget. Things such as...what is your episiotomy rate and what will we do to avoid it? How does the scene look with the midwives in a hospital delivery? They have complete control and a doctor would only be there in case of emergency, right? Will I be able to control the lighting? Can I play music? Will I labor, deliver, and recover in the same room? And many more...
I'm sad I won't be able to labor in a tub. I think it would be very helpful. I will try to do that some at home before we go to the hospital. I also need to ask how long it's ok to stay at home during labor before I need to go to the hospital. It's only a 15-20 minute drive. And I'd like to be comfortable and in control for the first part. You're less likely to be forced into unnecessary medical procedures if you spend more time laboring at home. I also need to come up with a birth plan, even though I know it's extremely common for you to stray from them.
My appointments are turning into biweekly occasions now, and soon, I'll be there every week. Weird!
It's strange to think that just a year ago, I was a newlywed without any thoughts of having a baby, and now...she'll be here pretty soon. I'm so excited about having a baby, and I know this is obviously God's plan for us...But it's definitely crazy!
My baby shower is coming up soon, on October 6th, so that's exciting. We were going to have a bump photo shoot with Wendy next Sunday, but decided to wait a little bit longer so that we can get some fall foliage and a bigger bump.
Well that's that. I'm going to try to join Danny in slumber land for an hour or so. More thoughts later!
~30 weeks, 6 days~
